I feel as though my body is revolting against me. I'm not sure why, and quite frankly, it scares me. It's as if for 22 years my body had held all of my health problems in a trunk, only to unleash them all within the last month or so. Is it all in my head? I hope. I pray. Every little hiccup that I wouldn't normally have paid attention to, I now question. I pray that one mindless decision I made did not affect the rest of my life. I can't afford to be unhealthy, and my mind wouldn't be able to support the stress. I. must. trust.

How could I have seen my innocence as such a plague?

Lord, please...